Bet you might not have known
Sunday, Nov. 30, 2003 at 11:41 p.m.
Russians. What more needs to be said? I fucking love Russians..... I bet you cant have just one!
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[in the morning i am]: Pissed off I am up that early.
[love is]: Painful and confusing.
[i dream about]: Happiness and all the things I will never be.
-W I T H .T H E. O P P O S I T E. S E X-
[what do you notice first?]: Looks, eyes, accent.
[last person u slow danced with]:My Dad?
-W H O-
[do you have a crush on?]: A Russian boy named Paul.
[easiest to talk to]: Justine
-H A V E .Y O U .E V E R-
[fallen for your best friend]: No.
-W H O .W A S .T H E .L A S T. P E R S O N-
[you talked to on the phone]: Justine
[hugged]: Paul.
[you instant messaged]: ???- Who the fuck knows.
[you laughed with]: Justine
-D O .Y O U / / A R E .Y O U-
[could you live without the computer?]: IIm going to have to. I cant afford tthis bill
[what's your favorite food?]: Chinese
[whats ur favorite fruit?]: Grapes or kiwi
[what hurts the most? physical pain or emotional pain?]: emotion. Physical pain goes away in the end. Emotional never does.
[trust others way too easily?]: No. I have major trust issues.
-N U M B E R-
[of times i have had my heart broken? ]: I was born with a broken heart.
[of hearts i have broken?]: No one would love me enough to allow that.
[of boys i have kissed?]: 5 or 6
[of girls i have kissed?] : 0
[of drugs taken illegally?] :around 4
[of tight friends?] : 2
[of cd's that i own?] : not enough
[of scars on my body?] : too fucking many
[of things in my past that i regret?] : I try to regret nothing.
-O.T.H.E.R.T.H.I.N.G.S.-
[i know]: I know that music can set your emotions. and I know that sex is overrated. Some people will never be faithful. And if something is suppose to be it will find a way.
[i want]: to be happy. To have a car. A russian. To not disappoint anyone anymore. To have passed my national registry. And to be a fucking writer.
[i have]: A broken heart. A boyfriend I have only been going out with for about a week and already cheated on. The right to be happy.
[i wish]: Paul would call me. I could write better than I do. This feeling to cry would go the fuck away.
[i hate]: Myself. Plain and simple.
[i miss]: Being a little kid when shit didnt matter
[i fear]: Life.
[i hear]: Guns N Roses
[i search]: for myself
[i love]: Justine.
[i ache]: in my heart
[i care]: too much
[i always]: put others over myself
[i dance]: No I dont.
[i cry]: on a regular basis.
[i do not always]: think before I do shit.
[i write]: What I feel.
[i confuse]: too easily.
[i can usually be found]: with a pissed off/sad look on my face.
[i need]: More than anyone can give me.
[have you ever played a game that required removal of clothing]: yes.
[if so, when and with who]: I dont fucking know asshole.
[favorite place to be kissed?]: my mouth.
[have you ever been caught "doing something"]: nah I dont think
[wuss]: Succa
[druggie]: not too much anymore.
[gang member]: fuck off.
[daydreamer]: yes
[alcoholic]: It runs in the family
[freak]: that is what they say
[brat]: nah
[sarcastic]: asshole.
[goody-goody]: Sxe is not me.
[angel]: never
[devil]: its not as bad as you make it out to be
[friend]: I think I am a good one.
[shy]: Yes
[talkative]: when Im comfortable around you.
[adventurous]: sometimes
[intelligent]: i think so
-Concerning.The.Friends.(You.Claim.To.Have)- like 1 true friend
[impacted you the most spiritually]: Justine
[wish you saw more often]: Kt
[wish you could meet]: Matt skiba
[most sarcastic]: myself
[wish you knew better]: myself
[knows you best]: justine
[best outlook on life]: none of us
[most paranoid]: myself
[sweetest]: eh.......
-Self-Analysis.You.Probably.Don't.Want.To.Do- I dont understand what this means.
[your best feature (personality)]: my open mind
[your biggest flaw (personality)]: i sometimes think some ppl are inferior to me.
[most annoying thing you do]: breath?
[biggest mistake you've made this far]: All the times Ive hurt Justine or made her mad.
[describe your personality in one word]: unique
[the physical feature for which you are most often complimented]: my eyes
[person you regret sleeping with]: Ken. Hands down. I like to say he doest count.
[height]: im too fucking short.
[a smell that makes you smile]: mens cologne
[a country you'd like to visit]: Russia
[a drink you order most often]: cherry coke
[a delicious dessert]: chocolate mousse
[a book you highly recommend]: Lovely Bones
[the music you prefer while alone]: Old No Doubt
[your favorite band]: Alk 3. Some Russian shit. No idea what the hell it is.
[a film you could watch over and over]: The hours
[a TV show you watch regularly]: None
[you live in a(n)]: duplex
[your transportation]: friends
[your cologne or perfume]: adidas. Tranquil moments, sunflower shit.
[under your bed or in your closet you hide]: alcohol, cigerettes, journals and shit I write.
[something important on your night table]: My journal
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